what if….
so talked to raph today…and he said the whole breakup had a delay reaction to him…and that now he realized we wouldnt see each other, be with each other, just in general not have the other anymore…and that he was stupid for ending it…
he said he had been over thinking and worrying about the future and for all the reasons in the last post…so he said he wants to get back together…
and gahhh i do too…id been thinking about it, and then figuring it was all over still trying to accept it and move on but after a week and a half i just couldn;t…
i guess thats normal with any breakup…having the missing and wanting the other back…but then i think of how hard this breakup was…and how well if we did get back together this would happen all over again…the pain and the saddness…and it was just so hard the first time idk if u could handle it again…
but then its like what if we dont get back…then what…stuck in the same place i;ve been…trying and failing at letting go and moving on…or if we did…then how can this not happen again…it either gets more serious or we just go threw all of this again but later on…and would it be wise to just let this be, or to give it a second chance…
i really dont know, but i dont want this to be a “what if” kinda story…
