Raphael…
a huge part of me is just really disappointed and sad that he gave up on us, that his thoughts were so strong that he felt like he had to end it…
i know what i want is him and that he made a mistake and admitted it…we are human and no one said it would be easy…
i feel like getting back togethers means really having to fully commit to each other, that our fears of what could happen can’t ruin what we have now. that he has to know he can’t just do that to me because of what could or might happen in the future…
that me taking him back and giving this relationship a second chance means no hesitations, no doubts, and no fears.
i cant promise him forever and neither can he, but i can be the best i can for him and us today and hope that its enough…to make each other as happy as we can and to not give up when fear of the future creeps in…
but im trying, and i want us to be apart of each others lives as long and as happily as we can be.
its a risk to put myself back out there to be hurt again, but thats the risk in life and love isnt it…to give someone the power to crush you and leave you but hoping they wont…and idk if it makes me stupid or naive to put myself in that spot again…but i can’t be afraid…cause fear of falling again can be disastrous but it can also be beautiful…
